Betrayer or Prayer
If someone point blank asked me, “Have you been faithful to your husband?” I’d nod and exhale, “Yes, miraculously.” I’d probably count off seven years of marriage on my fingers and survey how God changed me. Before I respected God, I harbored the philosophy that if I hadn’t found “Mr. Right,” then why bother staying with one wrong guy at a time? So, I dated like “Little Miss Judas Iscariot.”
Potiphar’s wife was a betrayer. Judas was a betrayer. Each of us harbors potential to break trust. We betray a friend’s confidence through gossip. Or, for me lately, I fear betraying my role as mommy by overworking. And do I really want Disney and daycare replacing me?
We can be replaced. It’s curious that while Judas Iscariot’s leadership position was being replaced for betraying Christ, the disciples were “continually devoting themselves to prayer” (Acts 1:14, 20b). I wonder if the difference between the disciples’ devotion and Judas’ disloyalty wasn’t in their eyes?
Notice how the disciples had just “gazed intently into the sky” while Jesus rose into the clouds in front of them (Acts 1:9-11). They awed at Christ’s ascension, and then moved right into the Upper Room to pray. While just days before, Judas had his sights set a little lower—some quick coins in exchange for the Messiah’s location.
Ironically though, to betray is to be betrayed. And often it is our own eyes that betray us. I’ve found that movies can con me. If I observe Channing Tatum romance his leading lady or Robert Pattison profess his epic love for Bella Swan on the silver screen, somehow I find myself wondering if what Christ has given me is quite as epic? And BAM— an opening for disloyalty.
But if you and I will look up to the Ultimate Epic One, we will find reason to bow down in loyalty. The Scriptures promise that Jesus is coming back for us the same way He left the disciples—in the clouds (Acts 1:11). And when we loiter in prayer with an epic Hero like that, we change. He changes a betrayer into a devoted disciple, spouse, friend, employee, and mother.